Long time ago I had a dream to write a book, but why anybody should be interested in my life?
I wanted to describe my way out from anorexia and bulimia to help other girls and women…but I never had the time and everything was more important. I am pretty sure you know this feeling, that everything is more important than yourself. Even it is the dirty cloth in the washing machine or the grocery which has to be done, or to write an email sunday morning to a client to make sure he knows you are working hard on his project. I can list a lot more things and for sure, you will recognize yourself.
Before I start to tell you more about my life and how all came, you have to know, that my life was just amazing, which I never realized as too many doubts, even if I had so much success, it was never enough. Now, my life is still even just wonderful, might be a bit better…different, but fulfilled! I noticed through my illness how much love I am surrounded by, real friends, support from people I never expected and that I am a “good” person who made mistakes in the past and still will do some in the future, but that this is human and I started to forgive myself and let a few things go, which made me sad but also insufferable.
Three month ago my life became a second chance, I am frightened, but I never will give up my hope and my positive behaviour. I won’t die – I will live with all I am!
29.1.2018