till they found out, what I am having.

How it all started?
Beginning of may, end of april a few things came together and happened at the same time. I was falling down backwards the steps in our house when I was trying to get a suitcase from a corner next to the steps. I felt hard and had some pain and even left a little whole in the floor where my ellboe must be contacted the tile. My parents have been here for two weeks due to eastern and holiday of our son Balthazar as they helped us taking care about him, as season already started and new nanny would start  soon, a future wedding couple was very demanding and out a lot of pressure onto us, as they wanted to have THE dream wedding comes true, saw us as friends on the one hand side and other hand side, as suppliers…for my reportoiere a very important wedding I had to organize within the next three weeks. On top, we would leave our son sleeping in his own room upstairs and we had to move downstairs due to building a big sleeping room for us – too far away from him, I left him alone…I felt not very well about it. So a lot of stress, deadlines, heavy feelings and pressure as  new season started – before I anyway were in the decision to step back, work less, but before I wanna work out all perfect. As after years of saying, I really wanted and needed the change and working less. I started in july …the same time my illness started or better became “clear” as I noticed that something goes wrong, but I didn’t want to go to the doctor. Due to lack of time-might be I was also afraid…