Glamouros and nature…

…now I know I will not decide, I am both and I need both like the air to breath. Like the air to be alive! I alaways thought I have to decide, I never said it, but I felt guilty when I did the one and not the other, when I was going out for dinner with friends to socialize instead of bringing my son to bed or when I was journaling instead of preparing the contract now. Always unsatisfied as I haven’t done the other thing. Go with the flow reminds me to young people having no idea what they want to do, but now I love it from time to time, as it helps me to feel free, inner freedom instead of planning and planning and in the end being disapointed it doesn’t work out as people involved changing their plans or it rains, as sun was the forecast. My head couldn’t relax  anymore, I was always worrying or thinking about what will happen when…Like a hamster in the impeller, no time to breath as no time to stop. And so it came one to the other…